starting tomorrow or better yet might as well count now since i'm not eating anything anymore, i will be fasting until (hopefully) next wednesday. if anyone wants to join in (even if not for the whole time) let me know we can support each other. i really need this kick in the butt to get me back on track. i'm once again considering a binge...so not good. i have been a cheating vegan which makes me so angry at myself. and it was stupid shit to not even something healthy like seafood or something...nooo junk. ugh i hate myself for it. i look in the mirror and just see the fat. blurgh blurgh blurgh. i need to be strong. the only thing close to solids that i will allow myself, and that's only when my blood pressure is to low and i get dizzy is either a 50 cal popsicle (it's hot as shit) or pureed fruits. but that's only if it's my blood pressure. i will allow myself one glass of soy milk a day so i'll hopefully won't have to reach back to my sorta solids.
however if the dizzyness isn't to bad i'll enjoy it, it's kinda like a high feeling for me. but then again i try to turn any "negative" side effect into a high feeling he he.
anyway stay strong guys
MUAH
need reverse thinspo just look at my pics he he
thanks for the comment lola i REALLY REALLY appreciate it!!!
You know this is the first summer in three years that I haven't spent in Austria or Germany? Irony. Your English is superb. Have you always lived in Germany?
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