check in and crappy collar bone pic

i wanted to share my collar bones with you guys, mind you i have a crappy light source in this room i have at my P.U.s house so it's kinda shady but you can see one side at least. They aren't quite where I want them but the progress is great, they are the only bones really visible yet so I've got some pride in them. Here goes:


i guess i should care about posting my face but i don't. i don't know why. i hope nobody i knows finds this but if they do maybe it'll be a sign of some sort. i dunno. considering however that i made a new e-mail and screen name never used anywhere else by me I should be pretty safe...I hope.

anyway it's kind of funny some anonymous poster decided to comment me links for a no carb diet and how to kill your own animals. i'm vegan but not for the animal rights. sorry to disappoint you. i'm vegan because i no longer want to be a lard ass and it's given me incredible control over junk food...well not all the way i can still find vegan chips. ate and purged a bag of those today.
i know purging is really bad for my health but like any drug it is so much fun for me and makes me feel good. i know i'll need to stop at some point but i'm still way to many lbs above my goal that i can't seem to care. i have my own little "ritual" i follow.

i'm SLOOOOWLY catching up on blogs and it feels great, it really leaves me wondering as to why in the hell i ever stopped reading...oh wait i was ashamed of me eating and was dealing with my own shit....bad excuses if anybody has understanding it's this community here. i still owe sunshine awards....but i feel like i should catch up on all blogs once more before i post them. i do want to but i'd rather not make any promises i can't keep anymore. it makes me feel crappy and horrible and especially when i break promises to you guys. you know my biggest secrets and don't judge me for them. well i'm off to sleep i love you guys
stay strong
MUAH