comfort

in Mia's arms....I shake my head. I'm disappointed. Me and my besty were talking and she was like you need an electric shocker on your toilet and I was like yeah it'll be like "Oh she's getting on her knees" AAAAAAAHHHH
yeah that would be awesome. Let's bring shock therapy back. I'm not leaving the house tomorrow so I'm hoping for a more restriction. If I could hold out one day I know I can truly leave Mia behind. As much as I like going out and doing stuff with friends, it makes me break my routines and return to Mia in an attempt to make it ok.
Ok I would just like to point out that I don't think Ana and Mia are real it's just personifying them makes it easier to explain my feelings toward my disordered eating. I still don't want to say ED because I'm not certified in that. I'm not diagnosed and so I don't feel the right to label myself bulimic or anorexic or EDNOS for that matter.
yeah so anyway not much to report I'm thinking of breaking out my step-aerobics dvd tonight but my body is kinda weak from the purging still.
a pic of my collar bones my only pride (somewhat) at the moment














gimme lung cancer j/k