My weight went up. I'm at 166.7lbs (75.6kg) I mean we're talking about grams here but still not cool. Mia has failed me again. I'm glad.
Monday if I leave the house I'm buying laxitives. I was thinking of ordering some online from the UK on ebay because I just have the feeling German ones are just not as strong. I don't know but I feel weird going into the Pharmacy and saying something like "yo give me the strongest laxies you guys got!!!" I just feel like I haven't been shitting like I need to I want to empty my bowels out a bit. I know I could do a saltwater flush but the last time I did that I was in the bathroom for like 2 hours. I kid you not. That shit was painful and I was scared to go to sleep. What does it look like for a grown ass woman shitting herself in her sleep. Peeing would be bad enough.
So on a side note. I've been writing with this guy online who seems to be my type. Well anyway so today he tells me he's a cook. This is freaking me out. It's not even at a point where we're talking about meeting but the fact that he's a cook freaks me out. I already want to sabotage it before it even has any potential to get headed in that direction. This is why I'm still single. I'll always do or say something to make me seem undesirable (as if weight and a pregnancy deformed body wasn't enough). I'm going to wait on answering him. Get over this seemingly silly freak out. I couldn't find my Aerobics DVD so today I'm going to look on free videos online or podcasts or something. If I find anything I'll make sure to post it.
Stay Strong
MUAH
Don't let a few grams up get you so far down!!
ReplyDeleteI would love a yummy cook to talk to :) just today I was whining about how being an "adult" means no one cooks for me (except overpriced restaurants)
Also, it is so weird that it's near impossible to grab what you want and discretely check out in German/Austrian pharmacies. I hate having to explain to some sleek blond lady that I have a yeast infection or I haven't pooed in days, before I can get some generic meds.