DELETED WEEBLY

I spend most of my time on here anyway so I'm deleting my Weebly. I don't even feel sad and now that I've figured this place out no need to keep another one.
Here are the Blog entries I had on there but didn't have on here
Bored 02/11/2010
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wow I just started blogging and I'm already hooked. I finally get the appeal. Plus while blogging I'm not really eating. So right now I'm drinking my whey drink. I know pretty late it's already 3pm.
I live in Europe but I don't want to get to much into detail about who I am kinda trying to stay somewhat anonymous. Mainly because every time I talk to friends and family about my weight loss success I get overly confident and don't eat the way I should in order to loose weight. So this way I'm hoping if it's strangers I'll keep on and since I'm putting it out there for all to read maybe I'll be more motivated.
I'm even thinking of opening a seperate site for the blog so I have two blogs with the same contents going. I might just do that now I'll post the link on the home page and vice versa. It feels so good to blog... hmmm I guess I am pretty strange ha ha.

a new day begins 02/11/2010
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I totally forgot to weigh myself this morning right after peeing. So this weight is post-coffee. I got 195.7 (88.8 kg). I love my digital scale because that way at least I can tell when I lost a teeny amount. Yaaaaay. So I lost some weight since yesterday could also be because the end of my period is coming.
Today I don't know how much I'll actually be eating but I know I need to drink a lot. Since my favorite juice wasn't at the store the other day I have to make do with water with lemon juice. I just added the juice of a lemon to one gallon of water. I mean I know all you get is that light lemony after taste but that's what tastes good to me. I've honestly been trying to go as bland as possible with foods so I can get the more natural not overly seasoned flavor of food but that's just me. Anyway I'll post along the day what I'm eating.

dammit 02/11/2010
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OMG it's barely after midnight and my control has faltered. DAMN IT TO FUCKING HELL
I freaking just had a chocolate cream desert worth 134 cals
I just fucking threw those cals away literally the things I could have eaten today..... damn my stubborness. Maybe I should rethink my strategy. Maybe I should just eat half the linner at the usual time and save the other half for when I get the munchies.
I hate it when I don't eat because I'm hungry but simply because I can and it's there. UGHHHH I really want to kick myself right now but I guess that's the great thing about a blog I can just write it off my chest. And if by chance someone should stumble upon this blog maybe they'll be inspired to be more disciplined than I am. I did so good during the day. I need to take my butt to bed sooner but I've always been a nightowl. UGHHHH KICK KICK KICK KICK KICK in the ass.....

No Title 02/10/2010
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So today what have I had so far
Cup of Coffee with milk 2 cals
Whey Drink 156 cals
3/4 Pizza with extra cheese, bell peppers and corn
I have no clue as to how many calories this pizza had but I'm sure it was at least 700 cals because before I added the extra cheese and veggies the whole pizza was like 650 cals

Ok so I'm not huge into counting cals this will be all I'm eating today. I do try to keep it below 1200 cals because I've noticed the moment I go above I won't loose weight. If I keep my diet between 1200-1500 cals I stay at my current weight with only a few oz. of fluctuation but if I eat more I gain. Ugh I hate it so much I want to loose all this damn weight already.