man i just had a binge/purge attack...and this right after saying how well i'm doing
my mini me didn't want to eat her noodles so to show her i took a bite of one then went into the kitchen and spit it out then as if I left my body
i attacked the pot with the remainder, then attacked her plate of cheesiness (just a bit not all of it plus she was obviously done) then back into the kitchen and finished of the pot while gulping water in between bites. then i realized i was supposed to be fasting and went and stuck my finger down my throat. god i am so disgusted with myself i will continue with this though NO MORE FOOD. the only consolation is this killer headache. i'm so disgusted for myself i shouldn't have tried to show her that it tasted good. god i'm so sick with myself ughhhhh
i hope my friend comes through i know i'll show my self discipline better since i can tell myself how high and mighty i am by not eating while she is stuffing her face
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