duu du duu du (shark music)

i b/p-ed last night
it started quite innocent too
when i'm going through a restrictive mode i tend to get restless and want to eat but i usually go through my cabinets and fridge and tell myself why i can't eat certain things. well in my living room i have this one thing where i still have stuff from my old apartment in there, i never moved it into my kitchen after i got it. so i'm going through the little cupboard and there's a whole bottle of low sodium soy sauce (awesome i love the soy sauce with rice which means i won't have to buy any for a long time), there was some miso soup and seaweed soup(the instant kind). japanese style noodles, some almond slices and this is where shit went wrong. the damn almond slices, first i tried to see how many cals just out of curiosity then i found the expiration which all i remember is the year is 2008. yeah they were three years past their date. so i don't see any mold i'm like hmmm i wonder what they'll taste like worst case scenario i get a fucked up stomach which in the end isn't to bad because of the automatic weight drop. i opened it and basically they tasted like old nuts(pervy thought just entered my mind). kind of like old peanuts that have been sitting out for quite some time.
then i  realized oh shit you just put a solid food in your mouth, this isn't enough to purge and then the fuck it mentality came and i made myself one thing of japanese style noodles and i took the noodles out of one of those instant noodle pour some water add the seasoning things out and cooked them together. i then poured lots of ketchup and mayonnaise on them and went to town.
purging was easy as it usually is when you haven't done it in a while. it all came out.
and no i didn't get sick, because that bowl of noodles was expired to ha ha.
yeah don't get me wrong when it comes to fresh foods i don't fuck with expired stuff but i'm thinking all that stuff that is instant and dry i won't die from it. and worse case is food poisoning which isn't all that bad (in my head at least i'm sick i know)
i guess looking at the amount it's not that much binged so i guess a mini binge.
i remember prior to the binge in an attempt to avoid eating anything while watching food porn in my cabinets i weighed myself to kinda keep myself from eating and i was at an even 74kg after the b/p i was 73.8kg or .7 doesn't matter.
which that's not all this morning after the laxies kicked in and that got handled 72.5kg...woot woot.
this however does not mean i embraced mia or anything. i just had a slip up.
i think i need to keep food porn to pictures (like in the awesome book Lou sent me). i need to avoid the food strip club (my cabinets) because there is no don't touch policy...skanky food products

I won't post this mornings weight because aunt flow is being a clingy bitch and i don't trust her. however if this is my real weight i am extremely happy


I do wonder what happened to Konrad I think he deleted his blog which sucks because he still had a bunch of updates i didn't get a chance to read because of my lazyness and then it was gone *tear* I just hope everything is alright with him.
I hope Phantom is ok, no matter what she's doing right now. I wish her the best and hope she'll return even if it's just to post about her day to day.

i want to say congrats to Avani she posted a very great blog post today saying she is officially fully recovered. i am soooo happy for her. i think it's a great thing that should be celebrated and i did totally do a happy dance for her this morning.
Lou also posted a very positive vlog
so thanks to them I also had a great start to my day


so let us be positive. it feels good. (i'm sure if i got banged nice and hard that would feel good to...sorry i turn into a hornball toward the end of my period)
so stay strong
be positive
MUAH