I ate just to purge...wth is wrong with me

I just ate three slices of bread with cheese and banana just so i could throw up. There was no trigger, i didn't want the food, i wanted to vomit.
Seriously dylphe? Seriously?
I think it's time for bed. My laptop just overheated anyway. Tomorrow i'm running errands and then it's time to delve into the wonderful world striving for perfection i hope a friend announced herself saying she wanted to come over. Yeah a social life is great but can't i just stay in my little bubble focused on my scale and cal intake?
Why are we such social creatures?
Gnight guys purging is good for one thing...draining energy haha
oh yeah that pic is me post purge and this time i only removed the vomit no eye wiping.