man

ok so my back is still fucked. at least i'm drinking a lot yesterday i had about 3 liters of tea. but i still ate, it's kinda hard not to when oji-san (grandpa) keeps saying, you don't eat enough that's why you are like this. so as long as they are here or rather i'm staying in this house i'll have to eat. kind of normal. i can skip breakfast but not lunch and dinner. they'll actually go out of their way to cook vegan for me. they eat mostly vegetarian but for me they'll make an extra pot without the butter. yesterday it was soup.
on the bright side i ordered myself a step aerobics video. yeah taking it back to the 80's i might even wear leg warmers when i work out. i would wear the leotard but god i would probably scare the shit out of anybody who saw me, including myself. i love step aerobics so i'm hoping i'll stick to it. i'm glad my stepper is already unpacked, which of course doesn't do me any good while my back is still fucked up, and i'm not at home.
i brought two dvds with me, pilates and qi gong, i can forget about doing pilates but i might just pop in the qi gong and see how far i can take it with the pain. it might not burn a lot of calories but at least it's some sort of motion and might help my back since it's slow.
the P.U.s are coming back on wednesday. thank goodness. don't have to worry about the shop after that and i can take my ass home. my very unfinished home without a kitchen however i can start looking for a kitchen once their back because i'll have the transportation means for it then. oh happy fucking day. i need a kitchen because then all the stuff will be organized and i can use a scale for exact measurements.
i haven't weighed myself lately because the scale is still downstairs and i always forget to go down there before i drink anything. i refuse to step on the scale after any consumption because i'm scared enough of the number as it is because while working this week i had chinese food. lots of it, i'd forget purging is not an option.
well guys stay strong, i also have 1 more follower, makes me happy, in my pants. i need to really get strong also for all the followers, what's the point in following me if it's only whining right?
anyway
stay strong
MUAH