EDIT: this is what i meant to say before the rest, I changed my name from Chick (so unpersonal) to Dylphe...I just like the sound of that name it holds no spectacular meaning...so now to the post:
i will step on the scale in a minute i've been avoiding posting my weight, which is not as low as I want it just out of plain frustration with myself.
i can't keep a liquid fast going for shit, mini-me's dinner is just such a temptation. i just need to throw everything away that's not consumed by her.
about my meltdown yesterday...it's been a long time coming. if i do decide to do this, which i think is a good choice potential (but first i need to get info to make sure), i'll probably go into therapy, i need it but i'm just afraid that somehow we'll touch on my eating and yeah...big fear but i have other issues i must confront so regardless of the way it goes, i should probably get therapy.
ok i'm now going to weigh myself
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82.5 kg, i'll take care of switching to pounds later but i gained from my goal again oh yaay (feel the sarcasm burn)
anyway i haven't slept in 24 hours so i might as well make my tea and mini-mes breakfast since she'll probably be up soon.
maybe i can nap during her nap...i doubt it though i'll probably have that retarded sleep-deprived high where i can't sleep
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