My day

First off I want to thank this community. You are all fantastic, everyone I'm following and today I fell in love with Zen. I was just about to eat a big plate of Tofu and rice (fried, with okra and onions, seasoned with garlic, salt, curry and soy sauce, and let's not forget the egg whites). When I started reading her post from today and something switched.

It's actually pretty good but after I finish writing I'm going to flush that whole plate down the toilet, that way I can justify in saying it went to the same place it would've anyway but didn't go through all the same channels. Yeah I just came up with that (I think, if I didn't please don't sue me) but I'm going to try running with it.

So today after mini-me's nap my mom calls because she wants me to come with her to pick up her glasses and that way I can get the groceries I need. Which was awesome I didn't have to pay for them. But my mood blackened for some reason (I don't know lack of sleep, headache, mini-me...a combination?) I was comparing myself to every woman and girl that passed me. I saw this one lady and she was so small that although she was wearing somewhat baggy pants you could still see the space in between her thighs...
Which later on when we went to the store was absolutely no help at all!! As we passed the easter candy I started noticing my thighs rubbing together. I was disgusted with myself but still managed to buy 2.5 kg package of tofu (the store is similar to sam's club in the states everything in huge quantities), 2L of egg white and a pack of smoked tofu (which tastes divine), which upon coming home almost made me want to binge, but for some reason I stayed strong, maybe because I was already cooking so I knew food was on the way.
Well I'm off to flush this crap...
Stay strong everyone and oh yeah I have 5 followers which makes me happy.
I think everyone starts their blog not expecting people to read but once they do, it makes it good to know somebody actually cares enough to read about my shitty life.
THANK YOU
you guys don't know how much you lessen my loneliness!

EDIT: I succeeded in flushing down mini-me's food down the toilet. Yay go me, now I have company motivation not to eat, she knows what I'm doing and accepts it she promised to stop me at the lowest