no thanks

to food i say. i absolutely don't want to eat.
mia is whispering in there telling me to stuff my face but the moment i go in the kitchen it's like ugh food.
i opted for coffee since that way my body will think it's getting something. the coffee is with milk and with milk foam so it's not pure coffee.
i do plan on riding this no food wave as long as possible. no food no mia, no mia and physically i'm better.
speaking of mia the other day i was on the phone with the friend who i smoked pot with. and she was like she'd do something if i lost to much weight especially because i'm throwing up. after i explained to her that i only do it to deal with my emotions she was calmed down. ha ha how easy it is to fool people. then she was all like you don't need to loose any more weight bla bla. i was like yes i do my bmi is still overweight. she's all like really? i'm like yeah, you're comparing me to my largest size of course i seem skinny compared to that. plus my upper body shows the weight loss a lot more. then she went on about how she wished she was at my weight and i'm like but you're much taller (she's like 10cm taller) than me. and she's like true true.
god i wish i never would have told her. but whatever i'm over it. what is she going to do tell my parentals? let her can she prove that i suffer from an ed? nope not at all. i've maintained a steady weight (unfortunately) since last summer. so yeah whatever. i don't really have to worry about parental concern until i reach the 50's (kg). besides i'm an adult. there's nothing anybody can do to me. it's not hurting my child. so yeah...
anyway stay strong thinnys
MUAH