So got fat again binged last night got that out then wanted to e/p downed the food was about to purge when mini-me woke up because she pooped herself after that i got a phone call needless to say i kept th 2 bowls of rice in me. Ugh. So i'm on the bus right now but this morning my weight was 75.1kg. Sorry but i can't do the conversion to lbs right now if remember when i get home i'll post it. I'm so tired. The ED insomnia is coming back, i guess that super nap the other day was my last blissful bit of sleep for a while. How long will it be until i'm up 24+ hours again. I'm gonna lax when i get home i like pooping at night it's the most peaceful.
I have a b/p planned when i get home just trying to figure out where zo buy the shiznit in the most efficient manner. No stopping it today my parentals are coming over for coffee and cake and i'm so fucking anxious it's retarded. God i need to find a new shrink so i can get my meds. I need that who gives a fuck attitude back. I'm so murr.
I've noticed i'm getting more and more into skinny dudes. I woudn't dare date one now that would just be embarrasing but i'm saying i used to be all about guy that were chunky but now i'm more into skinny. All depends of course character makes up for a lot because i don't care how hot you are if you're an asshole ypu'll be ugly to me fast. Maybe i'm weird but if i don't like you, you are ugly. I always say i don't associate with ugly people, i don't care about societies standards and some people may homies are ugly but just saying. WOW i just got random as hell. Sorry i'm sitting on the bus with not much else to do so i'll end this now gotta start paying attention to where i am.
Stay strong you beautiful people
less than three times three
MUAH
I tend to do this on the bus too ^^ rambling makes it go quicker.
ReplyDeleteTry not to worry and stay strong!
I know what you mean about the guys being twats and assosiating them with ugliness. Doesn't matter if they're hot on the outside, they're ugly inside!
All the best <3 x
I'd love to have that I don't care attitude, would love to tell a heap of ppl where to stick their opinions lol.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find a shrink you like, I'm in that same boat right now, need sum medicine nom nom nom.
Hate the insomnia that accompanies the Ed, try some of that Stress Tea frm Kava, its pretty good, might help u with the anxiety in the meantime.
Stay strong beautiful.
Hope you feel better
Hope you managed to get off the bus at the right stop!
ReplyDeleteI kind of miss insomnia, I know that sounds weird, but my meds make me so sleepy and often shut my body off before my brain meaning I'm stuck inside my own body and bored. At least when I had insomnia my house was clean!
Hope tea with the 'rents went okay.
xx
Try Zoloft, if you're going to get meds. It really helped me with my b/p urges (well, at least with the purge urges)
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