my day [edited because my computer posted before i was even done...bastard]

i am a huge disappointment and when it comes to my body a vindictive heifer!!!
so basically after putting mini-me down for her nap i was like ok i'm going to eat, so i ate some tofu with soy sauce. then i remembered oh i didn't want to eat so i purged.
well i went to the bathroom later that day (TMI WARNING) wipe my hiney and there's blood. i'm like WTF so of course I check to see what hole it's coming out of because yeah with the abdominal pain I wanted to make sure I didn't need to go to the hospital or something.
Well looks like my period is back and i just had it the last week in November. Well this evening the bleeding seems to have lessened a bit.
TMI ENDING
Well with all the above shit happening to my body aunt flo and the abdominal pain i got pissed at my body and just b/p ed a bunch of times. A lot actually and I don't think I was able to get all of it out, when stuff wasn't coming up anymore at all I wasn't tasting the bile like usual.
but yeah today I had revenge on my body and i probably made everything worse.
i actually think my problems come from the purging i know i need to stop but at this point i can't.
i'll probably gain.
i wish i could promise being stronger but i can't i'm sorry Fading Figure but no I didn't fast, i FAILED.
so hoping for more discipline tomorrow
oh and i'm going to the doctor tomorrow to figure something out about the pain.
stay strong(er than me)
MUAH