on the rare occasions i do feel hunger i don't want to eat.
when i eat i just eat to stuff my face. i'm just eating because it's there. i don't even know why. boredom? greed? gluttony? emotions? i don't know what my eating trigger is most of the time. i mean when that chicky came over yeah she totally triggered me, but it's not like i deal that much with her. so i just don't know what's going on. i need to find my trigger. it's not like i can keep an empty fridge. i got mini-me to feed and i can't seem to keep away from the "poison"
if i was feeling hungry all the time i would enjoy starving...so weird. i just need to remember (and stick to) not eating so i can actually enjoy the pleasure i have in not eating, the self satisfaction and pride i get out of that feeling
gluttony or pride which is the lesser sin?
hunger validates that what i'm doing is right. i imagine my body attacking the fat.
as you can guess i'm feeling hungry right now and enjoying the hell out of it.
i will indulge in this (unfortunately) passing feeling right now.
I will be thin, i will be a M.Y.L.F. (mom you'd like to f-dash-dash-dash [a christmas story is such an awesome movie]), i will be able to see ribs without stretching, i will be beautiful
stay strong
MUAH
You'll get there.
ReplyDeleteFiguring out what your trigger is sounds good.
Mia is an expensive habit, we gotta find a way to kick it.
I do the exact same thing. When I'm hungry I enjoy just basking in that feeling. When I'm not I put food in my mouth and I can never figure out why. I don't even enjoy it really, it's just mechanical. I hope you can figure out your triggers! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI always go one way or the other. Enjoying my hunger or devouring EVERY morsel in eyesight.
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