so this is what went down

i went to my parents for christmas yesterday as you may know. i was really worried because my fahja is back and me and him have not been vibing at all the past few years. well needless to say it was nice. it was relaxed. i'm not going to say oh he's changed because everytime i do that i get disappointed. however it was a nice afternoon/evening.
mini-me got lots of new toys which she loves. I'm happy seeing her so ecstatic about her gifts. it's good to know there is some appreciation left in this world. i got lots of stuff considering i didn't expect anything. i mean it's not going to sound like a lot but still. i got my rice cooker (do a happy dance oh yeah and my mom gave me her sticky rice since i can't go buy any until stores open back up on monday), i also got an ed hardy hoody jacket. i don't know why but my fahja got them real cheap down in iraq. so it could be fake. now i have to say i am not a fan of ed hardy at all. i will wear it since it was a gift but i would never buy it and i actually think people who do buy it in hopes of some coolness are pathetic. i mean if you like it more power to you but it won't make you cool so please if that's why you buy clothes for coolness don't. get what you like!!! i also got a camcorder. the army was just throwing brand new electronics away. so yeah he got it for free but since it's still with the tapes and all i told him there's no point in me having it even though i really like it but how many people still have vcr's (i mean i do but not the point, i couldn't really share it) and since i can't put it on my computer it's a bit pointless so it'd be better if he sold it and just made some money off it because somebody will buy it i'm sure. well needless to say he said he's going to get me one with a memory card so i can put it on my computer. AWESOME. yeah so i feel really spoiled but it's kind of sad that it's material things that make me so happy since on an emotional level my family and i can't really communicate. 
it was great until last night when i decided to opt for a binge. i'm talking a binge to the point where my stomach was hurting and it was trying to creep back up. but it wouldn't once again my inability to purge caught up with me. WHAT THE FUCK. i was pissed i couldn't get anything out except a bit of liquid. oh yeah so after giving up i just popped 8 laxies for which i am paying for right now at this moment and have been all morning. it's somewhat ridiculous but it's good to know it's getting out. however all the food has not digested in my stomach. how do i know? because when i burped about an hour ago i tasted my binge. i'm serious. i can't imagine that i would get the taste of something that's been digested already however correct me if i'm wrong. i've also been nauseous all morning however i'm trying to drink tea in combat. i'm looking forward to breaking in my rice cooker today. rice diet hello i'm dylphe let's get acquainted and hope i can stick to you.
well i hope i get company today because my grandparents sent a shit load of chocolate that i don't eat and i need to feed it to the fatties...i mean masses...the people i'm hating on because they feel no guilt in consumption.
oh Emily the gift for my parents is actually a small painting which once it's completed i'll post a picture. it's just not done because i haven't really had a steady hand. My mom promised to teach me knitting but we never got to it. i tried watching videos but i need somebody there who's like now grab it like this...i think your gift is an awesome idea maybe one day i can steal it and give somebody else a bag i made myself.
Stay strong guys and enjoy your holidays be stronger than your inner glutton and forceful family members.
you can do it yes you can if you can't do it nobody can (perky cheerleader voice...believe it or not i was one as a kid until i had a shitty racist coach who ruined it for me, maybe had i stuck to it i wouldn't be such a fat ass now)
MUAH