so here's to knowingly being a dumb ass

so yesterday my friend came over (remember mia-girly i mentioned when i was in the hospital? well we are friends). we had a binging session but didn't do the do, the it, the thing, the purge. so feeling guilty this morning i finished of the rest of the chips in the bowl and half of the other one i'd bought and purged. kind of like making up for not doing it last night. i just had this need to purge. i have a sore throat remember? but if punishment isn't painful what's the point?
so yeah as i'm going in for the purge i realize damn it my throats fucking swollen and i could barely get my fingers in. (oh i'm thinking of deflowering here, the pervy mind is working) and i have to ease into a purge...never done that before. so yeah the actual coming up actually doesn't hurt that bad and i'm going and going and then a blood and chips combo. damn it this virginized throat couldn't handle the hand. i really don't think it's the typical blood in vomit i think i scratched my throat in the process. damn it. well i got most of it out and feeling a lot better. but i don't think there'll be much eating going on today which is a good thing. swallowing hurts like a bitch. mostly liquids i'm thinking...hoping.

(yeah i rock a face mask when i'm sick)

sick dumb ass signing off
stay strong
muah